We’ve had several conversations about your disbelief/unbelief/unsure-belief… I think you bring it up to me, because deep down you’re wanting answers. Answers that I can’t always give you, but I wish I could. You see, there is still so much about God that even I don’t know or understand. But that’s kind of the point… believing in something bigger than you, something so grand it’s a bit incomprehensible… it’s called having faith. While I don’t always have the answer, I do always have faith. And I want you to have that too.
I can tell you that so much of the Bible is actually true, like there’s historical proof for many of its events… Mind not blown yet? You’re a history buff; I challenge you to dive in and discover the historical accuracy for yourself.
Ever feel like you’re missing something? That you aren’t really complete? Maybe you try to fill the void with work, sports, friends, girls, etc.? But no matter what you do or what happens, something is still missing… That’s God. He wants to be a part of your life. He wants you to desire him so that He can fulfill you and bless you in ways greater than you can even imagine right now.
When you’re tired of fighting, tired of hiding, tired of making excuses, tired of not being able to fill that void… He’ll be waiting.
I’m just going to leave this right here for when you do decide:
Father God, I am tired from trying to make my life measure up. I have been searching to know You, but no one knows who exactly You are or how to live up to Your expectations. I ask you to close the gap between us and help me find the answers to my questions. I ask you to fill the void in me, because I am so tired of feeling empty, useless. Show me my purpose. I thank You for sending Jesus to die for me, so that I may be remade. I am ready to be made new by You. I will follow You and trust that you will lead me every day of my life. Thank You for forgiving me. Amen.
Until you decide you’re ready for that step, I’ll still be here urging you to discover the answers for yourself, trying to answer as many as honestly as I can, and praying that you find the ultimate solution.
Disclaimer: the greater majority of my students do not even know I have a blog, and the few who do would not be inclined to read it. Sadly, these are completely anonymous posts that will most likely never be read by those they are intended for. These are just my silent prayers. I would never force my beliefs onto anyone as I am accepting of others and differing beliefs, but if someone comes to me personally asking about my beliefs, I will be honest. Planting seeds, people, planting seeds.